mindblowing…
At present, I’m sure that About adoration, part 2 was just a snapshot in time.
Powerful as it is, it was compulsive. Part 3, however, marks the sustainability of adoration.
Darn, where have I get myself into? Why did I give in to it?
It’s obvious, I’m still too fond of it.
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Numerous words to describe adoration.
Cute; sweet; addictive; calming; provocative; and of course, adorable.
At first impression, THE most interesting qualities.
However, it lacks satisfaction on principle grounds.
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The ‘Yes and No’s’ and promises, sadly unreliable.
“Hot and Cold” - mA. Indeed, Kati Perry’s.
Lost in translation. But, still dreaming, even in vain.
Where is my last line of defense?
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Despite the pros and cons, and the impossibility, these thoughts are inconsolable.
But, for the sake of my own well-being: oblivion.
My experience shows that it has to ‘self-destruct’ itself.
Is this my desire? Truly muddled.
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“This adoration, for now and forever.” Do I, really?
It seems infinite, but so undesirable.
Why is this adoration so persuasive? And so persistent?
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Did, I wish I could tell you why…
wish I could tell you how you got lost in it…
cause maybe then at sum point I could hav given these answers to myself.
We can get lost in things, we can get lost in people.
Why it happens? Maybe we do not need that answer; maybe we just have to be strong enough to decide whether we want to cling on or let go.
I wonder about the line between love and adoration. Do I not love sth/s.o. that I adore? Maybe hard to tell.
Hey, but let’s just try to be positive.. maybe through believing that some adoration can bring deep happiness.. that which is responded with adoration. ![]()
big hug
keep up that cute smile!
VV
Hihi… you’re right on several things!
1. deciding whether to cling on or let go.
2. adoration brings happiness.
As for the first part, THAT is the question. And indeed, adoration brings happiness, but also disappointment. As in my case… ![]()
Anyway, thanks for reading and counseling Vi! =)
Fixation??
part 4
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So you think I’m fixated on ‘adoration’? Honestly, I truly don’t know! Hopefully not though, as it might bring bad results! Furthermore, I really hope this is the last part of adoration. I’m so done thinking about it man! However, my thoughts may change in the future right? Hence, I can’t exclude part 4 entirely. But let’s hope I do! ![]()
no mannn, I think your adoration becomes fixation ![]()
just kiddin’, let’s keep it a trilogy! ![]()